Gemini's Journey

Exciting

Things go well. And this is good. Sure, life is stressful. But I'm managing to stay afloat and right now, that's a lot! :)

Friday we met a wonderful woman. She's gorgeous! And smart and funny. Easy to talk to and get along with. Of course is this all first impressions. It will be very interesting to see where this leads. I'm intrigued. Jordan can't stop talking about her. And it's all in good ways.

We're both excited to be traveling on this new journey together and to share ourselves with someone else and with each other. I think the biggest thing is sharing together.

The business goes, slowly, but it goes and will grow and form. The key for myself right now is not rushing. It's a hobby, it's a dream and it will be obtained, just not over night.

And now we head into the busy time of year. At least I think so. Samhain is around the corner! I'm going to Utah for an extended weekend to visit my sister and her family. And then a huge to-do at work for Halloween, dressing up, contests on the 29th. A Halloween party the 30th and Samhain on the 31st. 

For me Samhain is a day of honoring our loved ones who no longer walk this earth. This year will be exceptionally difficult because my mother passed away this past March. This is the night when the veil is thinnest. I long to hear her voice. To feel her  touch. To just know that although she is no longer here, that she is still with me.

This was her favorite time of year. The weather changing. The Halloween decorations followed by Thanksgiving and Christmas. I now carry with me the same love for decorating during this time of year. I no longer celebrate Christmas, as a Christian Holiday, but rathe Yule, as a pagan holiday.

Here's to a crisp chill winter and warm comforting hearth. May your hearth glow with love and peace. May we turn inwards in these darker months and discover anew ourselves.

The Doing Will Be Difficult

It's easy to sit at work, with nothing to do, or just  busy work, and think of all the better things you could be doing. And then, when given the chance to not be at work and to do better things with time, I tend to do nothing at all.

I have dreams. This job, this thing I do Monday thru Friday, 7am to 4pm, I do as a means to an end. I long to live a different life. Where I wake up every morning and I'm excited to go to work, because the work I do would be what I love. (Isn't this everyones dream?)

I dream of owning a shop. Nothing big, nothing fancy, but it's a place of peace and there you can find the things that make you smile and feel good about who you are, deep down inside.

I don't expect to become rich from this idea. Just enough to get by. To be happy. So I think that maybe I'll stick out this desk job until I have enough in retirement that even if the store didn't make much of a profit, as long as it broke even I'd still be able to keep it. The trick would be to keep myself from spending money now on things I don't really need.

I'm Irish. I have a Celtic Heritage that runs deep in my veins. These desires I have are strong. Deep and true. Now, to find that balance between providing for what is needed today and working towards what is wanted tomorrow.

This can be done. It brings such joy and light to my heart and soul to just think about it. The doing will be difficult.

Oh but it will be worth it.